I’m a failure, I’m a freak.
I’m a chip on your shoulder.
i'm being really random now.

"Out of the silence, I said, I will lift you up. And all of the strength that I have, I will lift you up."

I suppose it hurts my pride to do that.
But I don’t know, I’m not the type of person to be mean or disregard a person’s feelings even if I don’t like them.
I’ll do this for no one, I suppose. If I do this for myself, I’m not really getting anything out it but being a better person. I just don’t want to become fake.
I don’t know if I want to make this step, but I will have to..

this war is getting harder to fight by myself
i dont even know what i'm doing now.
k, self-vannalation of my thoughts.
life is so zzz , blah.
k bye.

hello~was online when suddenly remember percussion blog wasn't up date so come back here!!!!!
firstly,i think many were worried bout their results. what i want to say to u guys is what was done is done(is there any grammar mistake? i dun care), as long as u had done ur best, u should not feel sad or regret bout anything:) okay.......dun worry a ymore.

time really flies. i had been in this band and this percussion family for 1 yr and more. i had developed strong bond with u all:) perhaps i may had made u all angry or so, but we were still a strong percussion family. i really treasure the time i shared with u all.
i am going to be a sec3 next yr and amanda will be stepping down(T-T), and zm and winnie will be going somewhere like jc. all the big sisters are going to leave, and we are not going to see amanda as often as now, at least not 3times a wk and 9hrs a wk. cant believe that all this is going to happen....gonna treasure every minute shared with u all:)

anyway,update!!!

happy birthday to amanda(19/oct)

percussion rocks,
jiaqi

hello! exams are coming so work hard and remember to rest well^-^

percussion rocks,
jiaqi

Yo!!!! i'm here to post :)
amanda i post liao hor dun everytime said i dun post...
btw BRYAN LONG !!! since when i nv go practise... dun said until like uu are the SL @@@@ U ARE NT :) and i nv go is got reason de hor .... u wan check?...
watever this Thursday got BAND so remember to come k @.@ : ) 
 
xinyu ^ ^

Never happy, Never sad. Just the everlasting feeling of numbness.
Being so immune to everything, Nothing's ever gonna be the same again.
Once bitten Twice shy.
have it ever occurred to you how effing unimportant i felt?
I dont need you, and you ain't necessary.
I dont need you like a flower needs a sun,
i dont need you like a fish needs the water,
i dont need you like a girl needs love.


Love,
Amanda
P.s bryan, i posted(:
it's a once in a lifetime event . heh.

HELLO GUYS!!!!!!!!!
this is jiaqi. up here to crap. MANY people are sick...k....so you all must take care of yourselves...being sick is really miserable. lols
anyway, look forward to monday. no lesson leh. my classmates will be so jealous xia. we must play our best!!!!!! haha, bryan can show off to zm your skill(drumset). lol. still remember zm saying ''since when is bryan so good'' haha

eat well,rest well, play well^-^

we will always be with you,no matter what happen,cause friends are forever!!!!

PERCUSSION ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!

I damn sleepy cause i have nth to do
god pls let me do smth...
OHH btw amanda do the userpic thingy leh
then we can post with our own picture,,,
then got recognition
or else anyhow post here and there then dunno hu what right :D
Thursday pls stay back to help me
god 150 bpm for mama mia
lols,,,,

okay guess i gonna go back FB
enjoy you weekday people!
I posted again
so when are youre gonna post?!

BRYAN PERCUSSION ROCKS YOUR GRANDMA!

yoz again. i've just come back from genting^-^. i guess was the result of eating too much junk food lately, i have a bad stomach ache on the day i am going to genting!!! was like so pain until i couldn't stand upright. then get to genting then buy some medicineT-T. and at genting, some1 mistaken me for a P6 kid -_-.....lol. then can use my look to cheat for another buffet(those above 13 have to pay more),haha.
i think amanda mistaken the writer for 11june for xinyu,actually was me, lol, because i 4got to sign off. anyway , i got bring some of the holiday hws to genting and end up neglecting them,lol. have to finish the whole load by this wks......
anyway take care and bye bye^-^

jia qi

hey, i'm appalled yo.
xinyu(:
kudos to you.
clapclap-.-
hahasee you guys on the last week.
i have god- damn 53 a math questions to finish.whut the hell
and english and physics
and chemistry.
sigh.
tell me, how am i supposed to finish this in a week's time.
i wanna watch my hongkong show ,
it's nice.
heh, esp with xxx inside (:
signing off,
amanda(:

yoz,guys!
i feel so bored n lazy lately....i've bought a whole stack of assessment bks and was like keep telling myself to finish in this holiday and i just dragged by saying"still gt 2 more wks" waste money...nt determined enough...lately lifestyle wasn't healthy too: sleep at 12 n woke up at 11am, eat a lot of junk food....started miss sch..haha,so weird. and lately weather is so hot(perspiring) and was like drink too much cold drinks and my stomach.....
anyway,guys u all must take care,drink more water(best to be without ice or will be like me,lol), and byebye!

hello!!jiaqi up here again!! will be going 2 genting(again), any1 need me to buy anything? sms me. ^-^ and keep this livejournal alive:) and PERCUSSION ROCKS!!!!

hell-oh. You guys should just god damn Updateeeeee
Apparently , its dead for like hmm...
1,2,3,4 weeks.
Good news:)
for me though, but maybe not for Xinyu.
I can see that you are really trying hard though, Haha, she used i'll! Omg. I've been praying fervently for a day like this to come
Haha.
I've been Reflecting and reflecting,
On the irony of life.
I may sound crazy here, but I do have a valid reason for that yo.
I have an overpowering inclination.
To help the underprivileged.
Don't ask me why/ what came over me.
So in conclusion. I've decided to tune in to
(Okay... So what's that channel for the upcoming charity drive show?to make my life easier, lets just assume its gonna be on channel 8) channel 8!
really sad though, cause its 10 bucks. I've been saving it for like hmm, 1,2,3,4 ,5,6 months.
You may think its no mean feat, but to me it is.
I'm a spendthrift .but even so, parting with my money, its for a good cause right???. Haha
Right on.

how's you life, readers?
Hope you're doing well, as I am:)
I'm not trying to brag, but Haha, I starting to feel very happy cause I'm laughing at.
Ahem, someone that has the same chinese name as the boys over flowers actors :).
Actually, I told her that I was gonna brush up on my language.
I got her to join me. And she agreed. Hurray!.
So, when she posts later , do look out for a fresh new scent of ahem's language Haha.
(she's sure to kill me , but, she's always using short cut and stuffs to write.so, lets hope. This time, she'll surprise you. Haha)

Bye!
Amanda:)


I placed my ears onto the wall,
It was a whispered conversation that no one could hear but me,
My ears,
Had a longing for sounds that I could not deny,
And every word dropped clearly into them.

As I gradually became conscious of my surroundings,
I stared blankly......,
My face was devoid of Expressions ,
My heart,
It was,
Palpitating,
Wildly.....
Nothing !, can assuage that agonising pain.
I,
Was racked ,
With torture.

went to watch 17 again after exam with my friend.
watch this movie quite late coz no time to watch.
today finally can have the chance to watch le!
zac efron so damn shuai!!!!
花痴-ing~~~
i like the part when he came out of his car and put on his jacket!!
omg that 1 so damn cool lorh!!!!!
okay. nth much to post le.

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yes, i'm back to post again
man, the lj is really dead.
as in really really totally dead.and since im a certified live saver,
i shall put in my utmost effort to try to revive it!! hahahaha..by that i actually mean cpr!
okay,... mayyy-beeee not .

have you ever felt so out of touch with the world around you and then you get to stop the world from all its activities and yet the tumult of all the happenings is just hitting you like a giant tsunami pulling you in.smacking you down yet picking right up once again then disappointing you by yet putting you down yet once more..

have you ever felt so close to someone you dont even know like how you listen to a song and yet it describes exactly how you feel.for everything.under the clogged up emotions from within are all being plumbed up and used..leaving you drained with all those thought..and then you just sit there stoneing for the whole day pondering over the stretch of words that left the damn impact on you.
god, i sound like a damn reality show host, ahaha.

hah! so what man , i'm just gonna continue ranting and ranting and ranting.
have you ever felt like a person living in solitude , where you suddenly disappear into oblivion, with no one realising that you were gone ...and
have you ever felt immune to everything that you feel that you can take on everything that is gonna come your way just coz you feel so numb?man,im really sound crazy.dont i?
dont you worry , cause i'm perfectly alright . :D
Hmm... so where was i?
ahh, everything just disappeared.
its okay , i'll start again ! i'm so boredd D:

i dont really understand birthdays.what they never tell you is that when you're 15 you are also one,two,three,four,five,six,seven,eight,nine,ten,eleven,twelve,thirteen then fourteen.when you wake up on your 15birthday,you expect to feel 15.but surprisingly you dont.you feel just like you did yesterday,when you were 14.and you actually are-just that you're hiddened beneath the year that makes you 15.